Alright, so I’m finally putting this down. Been mulling it over, you know? That first time. It’s one of those things you think about, and then suddenly, you’re just doing it. Wasn’t some grand plan, more like a switch flipped. Said to myself, “Okay, let’s see what this is all about.”
Leading up to it, man, my head was a bit of a mess. Not gonna lie. You play out scenarios, right? But reality? Totally different beast. I remember just trying to act cool, like it was no big deal. But inside? Yeah, a whole different story. It was all pretty new territory for me, every step felt like walking on fresh snow, not sure how deep it was gonna be.
So, the actual meeting. It wasn’t like the movies, that’s for sure. More… fumbling. Awkward silences, unsure gestures. It’s funny, you think you’ll be smooth, or that it’ll just flow. Nah. It was more like two people trying to figure out a weird dance they’d never heard the music for. Definitely not what I’d built up in my head. There were moments, I guess, where you connect on a human level, just trying to navigate something new together. That part was… interesting.
Afterward, it was a mix. A lot of processing, you know? Like, “Okay, that happened.” No big fireworks, no dramatic life change in an instant. More like a quiet realization that I’d crossed a line I’d set for myself. It wasn’t about the other person so much, more about my own journey, my own curiosity. You learn stuff, mostly about yourself. What you’re comfortable with, what you’re not. It’s all a bit raw, that first time. Just one experience, one step. And that’s pretty much it. You just take it for what it was and move on, a little bit different than before.
