Okay, so I’ve been feeling this… I don’t know, emptiness lately. Like a big chunk of my life is just… missing. And it hit me – I want to feel that spark again, that excitement of a new connection. I want to love again. So, I decided to actually do something about it. Here’s how it’s been going:
Step 1: Facing the Music (and Myself)
First, I had to get real with myself. Why wasn’t I in a relationship? Was I still hung up on my ex? Was I scared of getting hurt again? Turns out, it was a bit of both. I spent some time, you know, just thinking. I wrote in my journal – super cheesy, I know, but it helped! – and just let all those feelings out. It wasn’t pretty, but it was necessary.
Step 2: Operation “Glow Up” (Inside and Out)
Next, I figured I needed to work on myself. Not in a “I need to be perfect” way, but more like, “I need to be happy with me first.” So, I started doing things I actually enjoyed. I joined a pottery class (totally random, but surprisingly fun!), started hitting the gym again (hello, endorphins!), and even tried cooking some new recipes (burnt a few things, but hey, progress!).
Step 3: Dipping My Toes Back in the Water (aka, the Dating Apps)
Okay, this was the scary part. I downloaded a couple of dating apps. Swiping through profiles felt weird at first, like I was shopping for humans. But I tried to keep it light and fun. I matched with a few people, had some awkward chats, and even went on a couple of dates. One guy talked about his cat for a solid hour – not exactly my type. Another one was actually pretty cool, but the spark just wasn’t there. It was a bit discouraging, ngl.
Step 4: Getting Out There (IRL!)
I realised that just staring at my phone wasn’t gonna cut it.I tried be more open in my daily life,So, I started saying “yes” to more things. Went to a friend’s birthday party even though I didn’t know many people there. Joined a hiking group (turns out, I love being outdoors!). Struck up conversations with people at the coffee shop. It was all about putting myself in situations where I could meet new people, even if it wasn’t specifically for dating. I also tried to show my kindness to the people around me
Step 5: Still Figuring It Out…
So, am I head-over-heels in love yet? Nope. But, I’m feeling a lot more… hopeful. I’m meeting new people, I’m having new experiences, and I’m feeling more confident in myself. I’ve realized that finding love again isn’t a destination, it’s a journey. And honestly, I’m kind of enjoying the ride. It’s messy, it’s a little scary, but it’s also exciting. I’m putting myself out there, and that’s all I can really do. The rest, I guess, is up to fate (or whatever you want to call it!).
I feel like I still have room to grow,and it’s okay.
