Getting Started with Self-Restraint
Okay, so I decided to try this thing out, you know, exploring limits and sensations on my own. It wasn’t some big planned event, more like a spur-of-the-moment idea after reading about focus and sensory stuff.
First thing, I made sure the space was right. Cleared the floor, dimmed the lights a bit. Didn’t want distractions. Privacy was key, obviously. Locked the door, turned off my phone notifications. Total quiet zone.
Then I gathered a few things. Nothing fancy, just some soft materials I had around the house. Think scarves, maybe some soft belts. Stuff that wouldn’t hurt, that was important. I laid them out so they were easy to reach.
The Process Itself
Alright, getting into it was… interesting. Awkward at first, trying to secure things myself. Started with my wrists. Didn’t tie them super tight, just snug enough so I couldn’t easily just pull them free. It was more about the idea of being held than actually being trapped hard.
Did one wrist, then the other. Had to use my teeth a bit for the second one, which felt kinda primitive, honestly. It took a few tries to get it right without making it too tight or too loose. Then I thought about my ankles. Same deal, just looped something soft around them, linking them loosely.
The main goals were:
- Limit big movements.
- Feel a different kind of physical feedback.
- See where my head went with it.
Once I was sort of… settled… I just stayed there. Closed my eyes for a bit. It felt strange. Not bad, just… different. You notice little things more. The feel of the fabric, the slight pressure, the sound of your own breathing.
Honestly, it wasn’t about pain or anything rough. It was more about stillness, about being forced to just be for a while without fidgeting or reaching for something. My mind definitely wandered, but it also felt kinda focused in a weird way. Like all the usual external static was dampened down.
Wrapping Up and Thoughts After
Didn’t stay like that for ages. Maybe fifteen, twenty minutes? When I felt ready, I started undoing things. That was easier than setting it up, thankfully. Just slowly worked everything loose.
Afterwards, I just sat for a minute. Felt a bit floaty, maybe slightly more aware of my body. Stretched out my arms and legs. No marks or anything, which was good – safety first, always.
It was an experiment, really. A way to check in with myself physically and mentally. Not something I’d do every day, but it was a useful little exercise in mindfulness, I guess you could say. Just exploring boundaries in a safe way, all by myself. Simple as that.
