Okay, so, about being a trans lesbian. It’s been a journey, let me tell you. I started questioning things a while back. You know, feeling like something wasn’t quite right. I mean, I was born with a male body and, for a long time, I just went along with it. But inside, it always felt… off.
I started feeling this disconnect, this anxiety, and it was eating me up. I’d catch myself having these daydreams, you know? Fantasizing about living as a woman. And these weren’t just passing thoughts. They were intense, like, “I wish this could be my reality” kind of intense. And then there were the little things. Like, I loved it when people used she/her pronouns for me, even if it was just online or in games.
The First Steps:
- Acknowledging it: I started by admitting to myself, yeah, this is who I am. I am a woman, even though my body didn’t match. This is my gender identity, a transgender woman.
- Exploring: Then I got into the whole online world. Joined some groups, read a ton of stories. It was wild seeing how many people were going through the same thing. Started getting comfortable with the term “transgender”. The real meaning about gender identity and sexual orientation. I feel I’m attracted by girls, so I realized I’m a lesbian.
The Transition:
- Talking to a doctor: This was a big one. I got an appointment with someone who knows about transgender stuff, for HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy). I showed my insurance card. I even made my own account on their website. It was a bit of a hassle, but worth it.
- Getting the hormones: So, yeah, hormones. It’s a process, you know? You gotta declare your gender and sign a bunch of papers. Some people need a letter from a psychologist, but I just did the informed consent thing.
- Changing my look: I started messing with my look, too. Started wearing more androgynous clothes, you know, stuff that’s not super girly but not guy-ish either. And then there’s the whole hair removal thing. Shaving, and I even looked into laser stuff. I’m also trying to get a more feminine figure, working out and watching what I eat.
- Voice training: Oh, and the voice! That’s a whole thing on its own. I’m trying to train my voice to sound more feminine. There are tons of videos and stuff online. It’s tough, but I’m getting there.
It’s been a lot, honestly. But every step, every little change, it makes me feel more like myself. More like the woman I always knew I was inside. And yeah, I’m into girls. Always have been. So, trans lesbian, that’s me. It’s not just about the body or the hormones, or the clothes. It’s about feeling right in your own skin, you know? It’s about being true to yourself. And let me tell you, it’s the most freeing thing in the world.
