Figuring Things Out Myself
Okay, so someone asked about this, and it got me thinking back. There was a time, maybe a few years back, where I just felt… disconnected? Like the engine wasn’t really firing, you know? It wasn’t like a switch flipped off, more like the volume got turned way down low, and I started wondering, how do I even get back to feeling normal, feeling anything really?
First thing I did, honestly, was just stop and think. What was actually going on? I was working crazy hours back then, totally stressed out. Barely sleeping right. Eating whatever was quick, usually junk. My mind was just cluttered with work stuff, deadlines, bills. There wasn’t much room left for anything else.
So, I started there. Tried to tackle the stress first. Wasn’t easy. Started saying no to extra stuff at work I couldn’t handle. Forced myself to actually leave the office, or nowadays, close the laptop. Made a real effort to just chill out in the evenings. Maybe watch something dumb on TV, listen to music, whatever. Just something to clear my head.
Then, I thought about my body. Was I even treating it right? Probably not. Started trying to sleep more regularly. Cut back on the late-night doomscrolling. Tried to move a bit more too. Didn’t join a gym or anything crazy, just started walking more. Took the stairs. Little things. Felt a bit better physically, less sluggish.
Paying Attention to My Headspace
After sorting the basic life stuff, I started paying more attention to my own head. Like, what actually sparked my interest? Not just in that way, but generally. Sometimes just letting my mind wander helped. Reading stuff totally unrelated to work, getting lost in a story, or even just daydreaming a bit. It was like reminding myself there’s more to life than the daily grind.
I also realized I needed to consciously shift gears sometimes. You can’t just jump from stressing about a work email to feeling relaxed and intimate. It doesn’t work like that, at least not for me. Needed some decompression time. A buffer zone.
- Tried focusing on just relaxing first. Deep breaths, calming music, whatever.
- Noticed that physical touch, even just casual stuff like a longer hug or holding hands, could change my headspace slowly.
- Paid attention to what actually felt good or intriguing to me, not what I thought should.
It wasn’t some magic formula. Took time. Lots of just noticing patterns. Realizing stress was the biggest killer for me. Realizing being physically exhausted meant my brain just shut down non-essential functions. For me, it ended up being less about actively trying to make myself feel a certain way, and more about removing the roadblocks – the stress, the exhaustion, the mental clutter. Once those were lowered, things kinda started working again on their own. It’s super personal though, guess everyone’s different.
