Alright, let’s talk about something folks don’t always wanna get real about. I’m gonna share what I found out, just through my own living and trying things, you know? No fancy talk, just what happened to me.
For a long time, I just went along with what seemed normal. Didn’t really question it. I figured, hey, it’s a private thing, no harm, no foul. That’s what I thought. But then, I started to pay attention to how I was actually feeling, day in and day out. And things weren’t adding up.
My Own Little Experiment
I was feeling sluggish. A lot. Like dragging myself through the day, even when I got enough sleep. And my focus? Man, it was all over the place. Trying to get work done, or even just enjoy a hobby, felt like wading through mud. I also noticed I was kinda down, more often than I liked. Just this low hum of dissatisfaction, if you catch my drift.
So, I decided, “Okay, enough of this.” I had to try something different. I started thinking, what if this “harmless” habit was actually taking something from me? I decided to just… stop. For a while. See what would happen. It wasn’t some big moral crusade, just a personal test. I resolved to give it a real shot.
Let me tell you, those first few weeks were tough. It’s a habit, right? Your body and mind are used to it. I had to actively fight the urges. I started to divert my attention. Anytime I felt that pull, I’d get up. I’d go for a walk, I’d pick up a book, I’d call a friend, I’d throw myself into a project. Anything to just change the channel in my brain. I had to be disciplined about it, really make an effort to change my routines.
Slowly, and I mean slowly, things started to shift. It wasn’t like a light switch, more like a dimmer gradually turning up. After a few weeks of really sticking to it, I began to notice I had a bit more pep in my step. Waking up felt a little easier. That brain fog? It started to clear. I could actually concentrate on things for longer. I was completing tasks I’d been putting off.
And the mood thing? I just felt… lighter. More optimistic. Like a weight I didn’t even know I was carrying had been lifted a bit. I found myself engaging more with people, enjoying little things again. It was pretty wild, actually. My energy levels were up, I was sleeping better, and I just felt more… present.
Look, everyone’s different, I get that. But for me, stepping back and really seeing how I felt when I stopped that particular activity was eye-opening. It wasn’t about what anyone else said, or what you read online. It was about my own direct experience. My body and mind were telling me something pretty clear.
So, that’s my journey with it. Based on what I went through, I genuinely believe it was holding me back. Made me feel less than my best. That’s why I stand by the idea that, yeah, maybe it’s not the great, harmless thing people make it out to be. For me, it turned out to be something that was better left behind. And I felt the difference, big time.
