Okay, so, I’ve been seeing a lot of stuff online about people talking about their sex lives, or lack thereof. It got me thinking about my own situation. I’m 60, and I’ve never had sex. Yep, you heard that right. Sixty years on this planet, and I’ve never done the deed.
It’s not like I planned it this way. Life just kind of happened. I was always a bit shy, especially around women. Never really knew how to approach them, how to start a conversation, let alone anything more. I guess I was always more focused on other things, like my work and hobbies.
I remember in my 20s and 30s, I did try a few times to get into the dating scene. Went on a couple of dates, but it never went anywhere. The conversations were awkward, the chemistry wasn’t there, and I just felt out of place. So, I stopped trying. I figured it just wasn’t meant to be for me.
I focused on my career instead. Threw myself into work, got a few promotions, and before I knew it, decades had passed. I was pretty successful, at least in the career sense. But on the personal side, not so much.
Now, I’m retired. I have all this free time, and I started thinking about what I’ve missed out on. I see my friends, they’re all married, have kids, grandkids even. They talk about their relationships, the good and the bad, and I just listen. I can’t contribute to those conversations, not really.
A while ago, I decided I was at least going to try to talk about it. I joined a couple of online forums, read other people’s stories, and even posted my own. The response was actually pretty supportive. People didn’t judge me, they offered advice, and some even shared similar experiences.
I also started seeing a therapist. It’s been helpful, just to have someone to talk to about all this. We’ve been working on my social skills, and I’ve even tried going to a few social events, just to practice talking to people. Baby steps, you know?
I don’t know if I’ll ever have sex. It’s not like I’m actively looking for it at this point. But I’m more open to the possibility than I used to be. I’m trying to be more social, to put myself out there, even if it’s just to make friends.
It’s a weird situation to be in, I know. Most people my age are way past this stage of life. But it’s my reality, and I’m dealing with it the best I can. I guess what I’m trying to say is, it’s never too late to try new things, to work on yourself, and to maybe, just maybe, find a little bit of happiness, whatever that looks like.
