Alright guys, so this morning I figured I’d tackle that movie scenes list everyone’s buzzing about. Yeah, the one with the intense stuff that supposedly shocked people everywhere. Saw the trend, thought, “Hey, that could make some eyeballs stick around.” Didn’t think too hard about it, just jumped in.
First Steps & The List
Opened up my browser, fired up the search bar. Typed in something like “most shocking movie sex scenes ever” or whatever. Hit enter. Boom, tons of lists popped up. Started skimming through them, trying to find ones that kept popping up again and again. Figured those were the “shocking” ones everyone talked about.
- One movie came up loads, some arty European thing with really graphic stuff.
- Another was that famous Hollywood thriller where the scene was brutal and controversial.
- And the third? Kept seeing this older movie mentioned, known for pushing boundaries way back.
Thought, “Okay, got my top three right here.” Felt kinda cheap just lifting ’em from other lists, but hey, that’s what folks do, right?
The Cringe Starts Kicking In
Now came the messy part. Needed examples for each entry. Meant actually watching those scenes again, pulling descriptions, maybe grabbing screenshots (blurred, obviously!). Decided to tackle the first one on my list. Clicked play on the clip. Five seconds in… wow. Okay, this is full-on. Like, way more intense than I remembered. Started trying to write about it. Words like “raw,” “unflinching,” “brutally honest” came to mind. But typing it out felt… gross. Felt like I was just peddling cheap thrills.
Moved to the second movie. Even worse. This scene wasn’t just intense, it was ugly. Violent almost. Tried typing something like “The visceral shock value resonated globally,” but it sounded fake and kinda exploitative. Like I was trying too hard to justify staring at this messed-up stuff. My fingers just stopped.
The Reality Check Moment
Stared at my screen. Half-written sentences for the third movie entry glared back. Had the search terms ready, knew exactly which scene to pull up. But honestly? I just couldn’t click play again. Sat back and asked myself, “What the heck am I actually doing here?” Was this just chasing clicks? Trying to shock folks myself? This ain’t movie analysis; it felt like scraped-up trash content everyone else was vomiting out.
Remembered why I started sharing my practice stuff – it was supposed to be genuinely interesting work, not this lowest-common-denominator garbage. This topic, the way I was doing it? Pure garbage tactic. Zero value. Just… noise.
The Messy Pivot
Trashed the whole draft. Felt kinda stupid. Wasted a good hour searching and cringing. So, I just started writing what I was feeling right then, like I’m doing now. Instead of describing shocking scenes, I ended up describing my own process, how badly it went, and why I slammed on the brakes.
Honestly? I didn’t write the post anyone expected. I wrote about how trying to chase that “top shocking scenes” buzz led me down a path that felt cheap and useless. About realizing that just because something gets clicks doesn’t mean it’s right for me to make. It felt way more real than any dumb list of intense scenes ever could. Sometimes the practice record is just a record of screwing up and changing course.
