Alright, so, it was a Saturday night. I remember thinking, “Okay, tonight’s the night.” We’d been dating for a few months, things were getting pretty serious, and we’d talked about it – a lot. It wasn’t some spur-of-the-moment decision. We both felt ready…ish. I mean, as ready as you can be, I guess.
I went over to her place. We ordered pizza, watched some dumb movie – mostly just to kill time and, you know, try to act normal. The tension was definitely there, hanging in the air like a thick fog. We were both trying to be cool, but I could tell we were both freaking out a little on the inside.
After the movie, we just kind of… looked at each other. No words needed, really. We moved to her bedroom. The lights were dim, she’d lit some candles – the whole cliché, romantic deal. Cheesy, maybe, but it helped.
- First, we just started kissing. A lot. Getting comfortable with each other, physically.
- Then, we slowly started taking off our clothes. Awkward, fumbling, a few nervous laughs.
- Lots of touching, exploring. Just trying to figure things out, you know?
- It happened. It was… well, it was definitely not like the movies.
It hurt her a bit, which I felt terrible about. We went slow, stopped a couple of times to make sure she was okay. Communication was key, I think. We kept checking in with each other, asking “Is this okay?” “Are you comfortable?”
It wasn’t some magical, earth-shattering experience. It was clumsy, a little painful, and definitely awkward. But it was also…intimate. Special. We were figuring it out together, and that’s what mattered.
Afterward, we just lay there, holding each other. No talking, just…being close. We were both exhausted, physically and emotionally. It felt like a big step, a new level of closeness in our relationship. I think there were some relief, that the pressure, the anticipation, its all gone.
Looking back, yeah, it was a bit of a mess. But it was our mess. And it was a starting point. We learned, we got better, we got more comfortable. But that first time? It was definitely a night to remember.
