Okay, so I’ve been down a rabbit hole lately, rewatching Skins for the millionth time. But this time, I’m really focusing on Effy’s storyline, especially her struggle with depression. I wanted to document how I am kind of “experiencing” *’s heavy stuff, but I felt like I needed to understand it better, or at least, try to.
Digging into the Episodes
First, I rewatched all the episodes featuring Effy’s main storyline, from series 3 all the way to series 4 and those few bits in series 7. It’s rough, man. Seeing her go from this mysterious, silent girl to someone completely falling apart… it’s a lot.
I paid close attention to the visual cues. You know, the way the lighting changes when she’s in a bad place, the messy room, the almost constant *’s all those little things that start to paint a picture.
Trying (and maybe Failing) to Empathize
I tried to feel the emotions,Her silence,Her blank stare.
- The Isolation:I locked myself in my room for a few hours, no phone, no internet, just… nothing. It was incredibly boring, and after a while, it got pretty uncomfortable. I can’t imagine feeling that trapped all the time.
- The “Nothing” Feeling: This one was harder. I tried to just… empty my mind. No thoughts, no feelings, just… blank. I couldn’t do it for more than a few minutes. It’s scary to think about your mind just… shutting down like that.
- Not Taking Care of Myself: Okay, I didn’t go full Effy on this one, but I skipped a shower, didn’t bother to change out of my pajamas all day,and not washing my hair.I felt pretty gross, honestly. It definitely affected my mood.
What it is about.
It is not easy to do,I just want to record the process,It helps me understand the show,And I hope this can also help some people.
It’s a TV show, it’s not real life. But the feelings Effy experiences… those are real. And exploring them, even in this weird, imperfect way, made me feel like I had a tiny bit more understanding of what it might be like to go through something like that.
